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Assalamualaikum wrb wt.


hmm, i really neglected this blog.
wayy too long. and i've lost count.
haha. funny -.-"

haish. who am i supposed to turn to?
someone who i really can run to?
tell all my problems, get kissed on the forehead and hear soothing words
who would hold my hands and embrace me with love,
whenever i feel so scared, alone.
not feeling loved?

who was i trying to kid all this while?
who am i, to even think of having someone to love me?
who am i, to even have the thought of loving someone else's boyfriend?
what was i thinking?

is it just me, or was it really your fault?
you were there when i needed someone.
when i lost someone, to be precise.
you were always there, with her, just to make me feel nice again
to see the brighter side of life.
and you made me realize, losing him means gaining new friends.
multiple friends.
how i cherished that moment.

we grew closer and fonder since she went abroad again.
erm, i guess what i'm trying to say was
i love my new besty.
ahaks. i mean!!
throughout the hectic 7 weeks of in-campus,
never did my attention got over you for long.
(see, that's the credits you get if you're my friend)
sometimes, usually i'd be the naughty one being stubborn
and you'd be the angelic one.
oh how i love those times.

but now, all i can see is pure darkness
gloom surrounding filled with endless silence
maybe you're just getting tired of me.
maybe you never want to be my friend again.
you sensed it. you know it.

you ever asked me, did anyone touched my heart?
and my answers would just be the same.
can't you see it? or was it just me who's blind?
i didn't notice that you're actually trying to get me off
and it was my fault that i got the wrong signals.
i thought i'd be the world, to be there for you always.
but i forgot that true love stays strong
and arguments were some glitches to make true love even stronger.
i know it now. all this while, the words you said to me
were just something for me to hold on and keep moving
never thought i'd be so naive and weak so as to keep depending on it
i see it now. i see where's it coming.
i just knew. i'm not scared if you were to ever come across my page
because i knew you never will...

i just realize.. that all those times, those words you said to me
were just words.......