Obsess.

ob·sess

  [uhb-ses]

verb (used with object)

1.

to dominate or preoccupy the thoughts, feelings, or desires of (a person); beset, trouble, or haunt persistently or abnormally: Suspicion obsessed him.

verb (used without object)

2.

to think about something unceasingly or persistently; dwell obsessively upon something.

p/s: with everything around me. especially kpop and kdrama. *melts*

Lonely Heart

If I had a heart I'm sure it would say
How lonely its been since you went away.
With no one to snuggle and no one to hold.
I guess I'll adjust, or so I've been told.

It's hard to sit back as the line seems to grow
And watch all the flirting, when deep down I know
There's nobody there who can know your heart
Or feel your thoughts even though apart.

To know your thoughts with just one word
Without the others being heard.
To feel your heart and share what you love
Like some magic secret from up above.

The music flows and so do the smiles
From you to them across the miles.
Even our songs that were special there
Are followed by smiles for all to share.

I guess it's me... I just don't understand
You told me you loved me and held my hand.
How can I trust anything you say,
When I'm yesterday's news the very next day.

If I had a heart it would beat in place
Instead of having this empty space.
And yours would beat along with mine,
And I'd be yours til the end of time...

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Author: Lady of Knight

Words.

" I should have run away,
I should have pretended I wasn't listening
like I didn't hear it, like I couldn't hear it
I shouldn't have heard your love in the first place "

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p/s: a different direction for a different purpose.

lovelovelove.

Landon: Our love is like the wind... I can't see it, but I sure can feel it.

Miss-the-takes?

Pause.

=)

don't stop moving.

Never a favourite.

=))

=)

Sorry!

(credits to google and owner of pic)

Salams.

Hey everyone.
I really wish to apologize for the long absence.

(as seen on picture, the wabbit is apologizing)

I was really held up with alot of things recently that needed to be done stats.

It will take a toll on me in times to come if those things were accumulated over the period.

There are still some matters that I've not attended to or halfway done.

So I apologize again to those who's waiting for me to clear.

*sighs*

Oh yes, I'm very tired actually.

Mentally and physically drained.

But I've got to do what I've got to do, right?

And time seems to be running out.

*sighs again*

And after all this tedious work,

I just wish someone would kidnap me to somewhere far.

To Universal Studios.

Disneyland.

New York (heeez!)

Or KOREA.

Fully sponsored. (in my dreams)

That, as if, someone would want to kidnap me.

Keyword: as if.

Alright, just a short one now.

I'm typing this in between my never-ending work.

And discreetly. So ssshhhh!*

No promises, but I'll get back on track soon.

Miss me.

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p/s: thanks everyone for dropping by this humble abode of mine =)

p/s: selamat hari raya aidiladha! kalau nak takbir, kena buat sebelum Asar hari nie.

- Paksu: =)

- Mee Bandung Batu Pahat: mesti rasanya sesedap gambar. hehee.

- Hotty Totty: I've yet to hop on to yours. Soon yeah! thanks anyway.

- Lussie: sure will do! thankies =)

- Zhilmy: ahh thank you for the compliment ;)

- Yus: sure, no problem :D

** - Lynn: I've checked it out and now checking in back. lolx.. nanti i update okie.. miss you more ;)

** - Sheikh: oh yes! I'm so sorry hunz. Great to know that you're coming here. I wonder if you've actually reached Singapore as I'm typing this. Heez. There's sure tons to do around here when you visit. Tell me if you need any guide yea =)

Tired (and bored)

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh~

Tired.
Yes, I am.
Mentally.
I had quite a not-so-awesome days this week. Maybe because I'm gonna be in FC for 2 weeks and there's just so many things to learn and do and get scoldings for it. Like what that person intended to do, throw me into the water and feed the fishes. Or, if I'm good, I'll get to eat the fishes instead.

As if the fishes will want to have a taste of me.
Maybe they will soon die after tasting me due to high level of intoxication.
Bleargh.

I was supposed to do closing this week but I had to attend the conference on Friday and Saturday. So AC had to do closing for two weeks. Mine will be this coming week. Darn it. Oh yes, the conference.
It's the 13th Singapore Stroke Conference held at College of Medicine Building SGH (21-22 October 2011). The theme for this year's conference is "Bringing you to the frontiers of Cerebrovascular Medicine".

Sound "too chim"? Hahaa. Please do consider my feelings too, being physically there with Kak Ros. Well, I didn't say it was mundane. It was something priceless for me because I learned so much things about stroke during this event. ( not taking into account that I dozed off practically everytime the speakers start to present their topic of discussions =/ ) Technologies are getting a boost and it's sure an advancement to medical line all over the world. The conference highlighted the various diagnostic, therapeutic and preventive approaches for stroke, neuro-imaging, neuro-rehab and others.

=))

okay I shall stop talking about it. Heez. Anyways, after the conference ended yesterday, I went to meet beloved Aymans. And it's a surprise to see many fresh faces attending the meeting. Nearly 20 people, and as the most aspiring secretary running office for coming 6 years, I was proud because like finally I managed to jot down many names. Lolx. Okay not important also.

Right. Time is running out and there's actually tons of work to settle. 2011 is left with a few months to go and some of us already had 2012 activities up in calendar. Like me. =)

So I'll be off for another dose of KDrama before setting off to Lala Land.

*poOf*
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i miss you, ayah... really i do...

miss me like i miss you...

we'll meet again somewhere when it's due...

<3

Love Is Punishment - K.Will

OST Brilliant Legacy (aka Shining Inheritance)

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I should have not looked at you

I should have lived in another world

If I lived without knowing you

I wouldn't have known this pain

Even though everyday I erase you

Even though every day I throw you away

My heart has already hidden you inside

And is not willing to let go, calling that love...

I believed love was happiness

Love that can't be spoken is a punishment from the heavens

My heart hurts every time I love you

Because you live, wiping away your tears

I have forgotten that you are my punishment

My lips have forgotten you too

I'm only scared that

I might get drunk and tell you that I love you

I believed love was happiness

Love that can't be spoken is a punishment from the heavens

My heart hurts every time I love you

Because you live, wiping away your tears

Should I love in my dreams

As I cry and cry again

And fall asleep in tears

It's always the same after I wake up

I love you, I love you like this

Without anyone knowing, at a place where you aren't there, I'll say I love you

For the fear that you may run after hearing it

I love you without anyone knowing it...

Ouch!

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh~

I apologize for the long absence. Heeez.
As if someone's diligently following me =p

I started off with quite a not-very-encouraging week.
Abah met with a mishap that morning and admitted to Surgical HD in NUH.
My heart stopped for a moment when I got the call so I quickly had a washup and went there.
Looking at him lying on the bed with all that equipments beeping and blinking around after he came out from ops, I knew he's a strong-willed man. He has to be one.

 

I just know.

I was kinda rushing to work on Monday when somehow my right foot accidentally went into a hole that I didn't notice and I fell down, twisting my left ankle.
Oh yeah. The feeling of a sprained ankle, was oh, so, undescribable.
Did i have a good cry?
Not yet.
I took the cab to work. Upon reaching, I met with Ms Tay and she asked if I was okay.
Bla bla blahh~ I cried like a small girl. *sob sob*

So everyone decided to get me to ED for check-up despite my hesitation because Ms Tay saw the difference between both ankles.
Fracture? Tsk.
XR Ankle - no sign of fracture. Just swollen.
MC for the week & I was advised to have a very very good rest and not to walk around too much.

Yes, right.
Being the notoriously naughty girl, I went to NUH everyday to see Abah.
*prays hard nobody from work reads this*

Alhamdulillah, Abah is recuperating well. I think he still has some mini ops to do. From what he signalled yesterday and today, its for his trachea & right hand. InsyaAllah, all will be well.

And me?
Still walking around, limping to be exact.
Swelling went down but still painful. I don't know if the swelling could still happen because (2nd time) the left foot is 'bigger' than my right one. Haiyah.
I wonder if I could skip assisting for next week, but not in FC also =x

Okay folks, I need to continue my not-so-daily dosing of KDrama before I'm off to Pulau Bantal.
I hear the thunder too so it's a good sign :D
Take care and don't take drugs.

 Adios!
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p/s: should i change layout also like everyone else who's trying out the new outlooks? but it will hamper my unique individuality. *yucks. cam paham aje ku ni*

Surprised!

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh~

How should I say?
Today was really awesome! Abit slack today, not much work to do and we ended early. Very,
After work, went to Orchard Central with Kak Ros, Dee and Izat.

For a dose of Cold Stone.

So the very lengang, roads not really busy and people are not that alot.
Maybe, throngs of beings alike will thread down Orchard Road after 8pm.
When ERP stops.
I think =p

Anyways, back to Cold Stone.

Picture does say a thousand words. For me, its million words. I got speechless when I saw the menu =x
Make a good guess, which of the above did I choose? =)

And when I was waiting for Kak Ros and Dee to come back with their orders, an emcee from an event was announcing the arrival of someone special in a few moments to the event that was happening at a space near CS. Something about social or community development, I didn't really notice it.

I saw that person walking pass and my heart seemed to beat faster. We finished up our munchies (me last, as usual) and walked towards the event space and there I saw that person again. Who? =)

Alyah.

Yes.

Her.

Really.

I was speechless.

And there I stood, watching her singing Kisah Hati.

And watching her walking towards me, shook my hand, let me sang a line.

Flashes everywhere.

And she thanked me and walked back to the stage and sing.

I want to faint.
Okay.
You. Don't post the video online okeh.

Thank you, Alyah.
Thank you, korang. For bringing me to Cold Stone.
*faints*
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Dominos Pizza

  

I was somehow craving too much for the cheesy combo at PH

but Lady Budget was not really on my side this month.

So.

For the first time in my entire 'hot & amazing' life,

I went to Domino's Pizza for dinner.

On Tuesday.

(err. yesterday?)
Thankfully, its location was like riggghttt behind my residence area.

(10minutes walking distance)

Oh no. I didn't do the walking.

Drove there after work =D

See how scrumptious my order was?

(courtesy of Dolphin&Whale)

I had Value Meal 1 which consist of a regular pizza (can upsize), 4pcs chix wings,

a box of onion rings and choice of Cinnastix/Breadstix/TwistyBread

and additional of

*dreamy look*

Personally I think it's worth my bucks.

Looking at the pictures made me go weak in the knees.

What's more of actually eating them.

Maybe some would say it doesn't taste any different.

To each his own.

Kalau korang wase nak pergi, jangan lupa ajak I okeh!

Heeeez! ;D

Happy Birthday!

To You.

To Me.

And to all September babies.

=)

May we grow, prosper and have a blissful, blessful, blastful life ahead.

InsyaAllah amin =)

Wahai Wanita

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh~

Tuhan menjadikan wanita untuk menghiasi bumi ini. Tanpa wanita, dunia ini terasa terlalu kelam, sempit - tidak seronok untuk didiami. Kaum lelaki akan berasa rimas sebagaimana Nabi Adam A.S. pernah dilanda gelisah meskipun hidup dipenuhi kenikmatan di syurga. Lalu baginda memohon kepada Allah S.W.T agar dikurniakan seorang teman agar boleh dia berbicara, bergurau senda & membina sahsiahnya. Maka terciptalah Siti Hawa dari tulang rusuk kiri Nabi Adam A.S & segala kenikmatan syurga di sekeliling terasa wujud.

Sesungguhnya..... ~~~

Tanpa Siti Khadijah, barangkali Rasulullah S.A.W tidak mendapat 'dorongan' yang amat diperlukan untuk terus bangkit, berpegang teguh kepada keyakinannya & menyebar Islam sebagaimana semestinya.

Tanpa Aisyah r.a, barangkali banyak hadis Rasulullah S.W.T tidak sampai ke umat Islam seluruhnya.

Tanpa Fatimah Az-Zahrah, barangkali Sayidina Ali tidak muncul sebagai menantu Rasulullah yang amat disayanginya.

Tanpa Asiah, barangkali Nabi Musa A.S tidak terbela hingga menjadi penentang kepada suaminya yang amat kufur & mengaku tuhan itu.

Tanpa Masitah, barangkali tidak terbukti betapa wanita boleh berpegang teguh kepada keimanannya meskipun maut di depan matanya.

Tanpa Permaisuri, siapakah lelaki yang digelar Raja.

Tanpa Isteri, siapakah lelaki yang digelar Suami.

Tanpa Wanita, siapakah lelaki yang mahu digelar pemimpin.

Tanpa Perempuan/Ibu, siapakah lelaki yang digelar Ayah.

Tanpa WANITA, siapalah lelaki kerana LELAKI datangnya dari rahim seorang WANITA.

Seorang wanita terutama yang sudah bergelar isteri cukup mudah untuk memasuki syurga.

Sebuah hadis Nabi menyatakan: Daripada Anas, Nabi Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam bersabda yang bermaksud: "Apabila seorang perempuan mendirikan sembahyang lima waktu, berpuasa sebulan (Ramadhan), menjaga kehormatan dan taat kepada suami, dia akan disuruh memasuki syurga melalui mana-mana pintu yang dia sukai." [Hadis Riwayat Ahmad]

Namun, seorang wanita amat mudah juga dilemparkan ke dalam api neraka, Nauzubillah~

Segalanya bergantung kepada ketaqwaan dan keimanan seseorang itu.

Renung-renungkanlah... :)

"O you who have believed, let not your wealth and your children divert you from remembrance of Allah . And whoever does that - then those are the losers." - [Surah Al-Munafiqun]

Eid Mubarak

Salams all.
Eid mubarak. Minal aidil wal faizin =)
Segala kesilapan serta kekurangan, harap dimaafkan.

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Sowie sowie. It took me like, 3 weeks to have a new post?
Oh my Gucci! =p
Heez. Act busy only.
Oh well, mini updates.
Here we go.

A) Last 3 weeks (i think) we had our annual Ramadhan Youth Challenge at various mosque clusters. Of course, I'm proud to say that I'm from NWMC. *giggles* But the sad thing is, I didn't manage to follow through the whole event this year due to some circumstances (read carefully, not circumcision =p). I only managed to attend on Saturday during Night of Power @ Muhajirin. tu pun halfway as I had work in the morning til afternoon. Overall was fun. Had our usual tadarrus after Asar where everyone completed the whole Al-Quran. Amazing right? Yes, I know =) Maghrib, break fast, leisure time til after Terawih 8 rakaat then NOP. went back around 2345hrs with Syahira.

B) On the 24th I was on leave. A break i needed most. *giggles* As if. No lah, I mean, since it's a balloted leave for Eid week, might as well I have my break before Raya. Can hibernate without anyone bugging me about work. So I did as much things I could. Cleaned the house, practically just my room actually. Huhuu. Then I watched Brilliant Legacy (aka Shining Inheritance) and went googoo gaagaa over Lee Seung Gi *cheeky grin* then I fell asleep then break fast then do watever needed then continue clean-clean while watching tv then I went out lepak. I came home about 2330hrs then washup then cleep and dreamt about Lee Seung Ki. okeh not important.

C) On 26th August, had iftar with two dearest sisters (Nora & Shu) @ Arnold's City Plaza. Aziah was working night shift and Dayah already had plans to iftar at Al-Irsyad. So only left with three of us. Met Nora about 7 plus. Had our solat Maghrib for the first time at Masjid Wak Tanjong. Hehz. After that made our way to Arnold. It's super damn packed you know, even after Isyak. Lucky Nora made reservations and our number was 133. (number on Q system was 46 -.-) After dinner, we singgah at the massage chair for 8mins then off to Joo Chiat Complex to collect Nora's baju Raya. I tell you, I jatuh in cinta with this particular royal turqoise baju kurung Pahang with flower embroideries at the cuffs and kaki baju. It's so very the cantik that I talked about it almost everyday til Sunday. But rezeki belum ada, so I ended up buying another cantik baju kurung at a much more affordable price aka half the price of the turqoise kurung. lolx. Okeh not important also.

D) 29th August, worked half the day. Did assisting and clinic ended about 1.15pm and I was the first to sign out. Haha. But waited til Dian closed her counter as she wanted to haf company on the way back. Ingatkan balik rumah terus tapi dua-dua anak dara ni merayap sampai ke Orchard Road (Far East Plaza to be exact) as Dian wanted to have her eyelashes extension. (korang wase I pun buat tak? =p) I also took the opportunity to buy my shoe and bag. Heez. Took bus 190 home with her back to Bukit Panjang.

Mom was already home when I got back. We did whatever cleaning or clearing we could do together from Isyak til about 1-2am. There was only me and her. It felt different. Maybe because it's not the same as previous years. Maybe because we both knew it's time for him to go back to where his Creator placed him to be after/before Ramadhan.

=(

E) Like every other Raya, first day (aka first part) of Aidilfitri will be spent at Nenek's house. (Luckily my eyes didn't give me problems like it always did whenever I want to try looking a little better than before =X) We went there after Zuhur and stayed til about Maghrib. Made our way to Yishun then Boon Lay. This year's  Aidilfitri felt quite bleak, you know. Maybe because (third time) it fell on a weekday and only a handful managed to get an off day on 2nd day. Oh well, we've got to be thankful for whatever we got kan. So. Alhamdulillah, at least we managed to fulfil our Ramadhan duties this year insyaAllah Amin, thus the joyous occasion for us to celebrate.

Want to see pictures? Hunt it yourself la =p

F) Well, life goes on no matter whatever setbacks you have. Obstacles are just stepping stones for you to attain a blissful and blessful life, provided you don't stray away from the right path. There will always be One, the Only One, and never other except the One =) Pray that He showers you with hidayah and love to strengthen your faith in Him, InsyaAllah.

Alrighty, truthfully I'm doing this while trying hard not to doze off. It's the 5th attempt of posting this but to no avail. So if you feel like every paras don't link to each other, pardon me (but maybe it wasn't meant to link either, right?) -.- 

Okay. Pape beep.

Toodles*

p/s: thank you.

Best In Me - Blue

" From the moment I met you I just knew you'd be mine 

You touched my hand and I knew that this was gonna be our time
I don't ever wanna lose this feeling,
I don't wanna spend a moment apart

'Cos you bring out the best in me,
like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side,
That's why I love you

Everyday that I'm here with you,
I know that it feels right, (so right, so right)
And I've just had to be near you every day and every night,
(every night)
And you know that we belong together
It just had to be you and me

'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side and that's why I love you

And you know that we belong together
It just had to be you and me "

Operation Give (RYC)

Ramadhan Youth Challenge 2011

[ video removed ]

Jealous.

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Time -Wikipedia

Time is a part of the measuring system used to sequence events, 

to compare the durations of events 

and the intervals between them, 

and to quantify rates of change such as the motions of objects. 

The temporal position of events with respect to the transitory present is continually changing; 

future events become present, 

then pass further and further into the past. 

Time has been a major subject of religion, philosophy, and science, 

but defining it in a non-controversial manner applicable 

to all fields of study has consistently eluded the greatest scholars.

>>>>>

p/s: time changes. situation changes. we changed. no, I did. You didn't.

Collage.

p/s: i love you. more. most =) 

Battlestar Galactica

I was one of the kiddies on that roller coaster.
(not in the picture obviously. borrowed it =p)
Too busy screaming my lungs out during the ride.
Trust me, you'll be doing the same.

Haahaa!
Managed to only get on BG 'Human' (the one in red).
Made Izat promised to ride 'Cylon' with me on the next visit.
Somewhere in September?

=X

{ Courtesy of Camemberu ;) }

Picture updates or plainly updates later yeah.
InsyaAllah =)

perlukah aku...

Perlukah aku tunduk

Pada bicara sepi tanpa erti

Yang serik dibisik-bisik

Diucap tanpa henti


Perlukah aku tunduk

Pada rasa yang bertakhta

Hingga ku melambung impian

Untuk menggapai sang purnama


Perlukah aku tunduk

Pada hati yang makin layu

Andai sekeping warkah putih

Tercoret kisah dan pujangga

Yang benar² mengusik jiwa
Menjadi bukti segalanya


Perlukah aku tunduk

Jika semuanya menghimpit

Menyesakkan dada
Membingungkan kepala

Perlukah aku tunduk

Merebut kasih

Yang datang sendiri padaku

Tanpa ku cari
Tanpa ku sendiri mengerti

Perlukah aku tunduk

Andai harga diri menjadi taruhan

Soal hati tak dihiraukan

Hanya keegoan beraja di fikiran


Perlukah aku tunduk

Pada setiap mereka yang menguji

Ketabahan diriku

Mencetus sengsara dalam hidupku


Perlukah aku tunduk

Dan tunduk lagi

Andai semuanya makin membuatku lemas

Makin membuatku hilang arah...~

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Moderator @ istimewa2u
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Life - Scrapbook

The promise that we made
At the end that we brake
A laughter that we share
A fighter we declare
The lies that we hide
For the cries of our pride
The ego that surround
Burning us into a perfect wound
The truth of our heart
For not letting the tears falls apart
But we break the vow
For no reason somehow
For the trust that’s getting weaker
And we lost in our fear
For the love that grows
Endlessly it flows
Then somehow we realise
It’s all the agony from the past
Sharing the re-born relationship
Had made us appreciate our friendship
And no more truth to hide
And no more lies can tear us apart


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Be Mine II

I'm delicately handing my heart to you,

In your caressing hands to forever keep.

I'm giving you the chance of destroying me,

And I know I'm in your love too deep.

I'm giving my entire self to you,

All of my mind, body, and soul.

Handing over to you my everything,

In hopes, you'll be the one to keep me whole.

I'm depending on your gentle and sweet love,

To get me through the tragic world each day.

I'm praying to God you'll always be here by my side,

And that's where you'll always be to stay.

Putting you over everyone else including myself,

You automatically go to the front of my line.

Which is why I'm delicately handing you my heart,

In hopes, you'll always and eternally, completely be mine.

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Assume.

this is what we always think a CAT would do..

but this is what a FISH think it would love to do =p

Mission.

{ hopefully, in 10 years' time, I've saved enough to buy this. }

*giggles*

And today, mission #1 accomplished. Alhamdulillah.

Moving forward to the next one.

=)

Choices - Scrapbook

The heart loves

Whom it chooses

We have no right

To say or decide

Whom the heart

Shall love.

For the heart

Is of the inner being

Part of the inner soul

Part of what connects

One to another

The heart alone chooses

Whom we shall love

The mind tries

The mind fails

One can not tell the heart

Whom it shall love.

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* Leirra

Ziarah.

=)

tick tock tick.

Time is passing by.
Very sloooooooooowly.
Quite challenging weeks, I must say.
What's with the nagging, lagging, bitching, missing and any other -ing associated.
Sianx .___."

But it's something typical, right.
When time flies fast, we complain.
When time crawls slowly and make us feel like an idiot, we complain.
 Everything we complain.
And yes, now I am complaining.

*idiot face*

Anyways, it's a big relief for me today.
Assigned to Room 14 for AM session.
'Sucked' some blood out from some patients.
Lafaz 'Bismillah' menjadi senjata pelengkap diri *cheh cheh*

Which is better, to feel little pain but drawn once only or to draw 2-3 times but no guarantee to be painless?

*confused over own statement*

kwang. nevertheless, like the seniors always say, it's NORMAL to feel pain.

=)

okie people. time to pack up and head home.
eh no, maybe mayap jap *giggles*

nak beli pen aje okeh.

doodles.
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p/s: thank you very nice. i love me too.