it's DAMN IRRITATING when you call someone and that someone didnt bother to answer it.
neither do that person bother to even at least sms back, out of BASIC COURTESY.

never mind that the online message wasn't being replied,
but even to the extend of sending a few smses and getting few calls don't do the trick.

and the thing is, when things get sour,
someone will get SO DAMN DEFENSIVE and start saying stupid shits.
and say you're not understanding enough about the situation.
you can forget about getting an apology.

why?
because the fault is already half yours. or maybe TOTALLY.
it's your fault for asking that person out for dinner. despite numerous reminders and that person actually said 'OK'.
it's your fault for bugging that person when there's no reply.
it's your fault for wasting time on this person when you were actually suppose to be working.
it's your fault for not having enough money. AT ALL.

and it's YOUR FAULT FOR GETTING ANGRY AT THIS PERSON.


DAMN IRRITATING ASS.

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happy monthsary

to anyone.

i'm not gona say anything.

TOO BUSY.

can't even spare 5 minutes for anything.

will die if i do so.



forget it.

~.. oh Tuhan ku cinta dia.. berikanlah aku hidup..
takkan ku sakiti dia.. hukum aku bila ia terjadi..~

apeeeeee ni.
sentimentel plak mak chic ni.
oh well. i don't trouble you, right..
so shut it.
hush!

tapikan... sebenarnya kadang-kala tu kita step cam bagus aje.
dah kena muka sendiri baru tahu rasa.
jangan sembarangan minta hukuman kalau belum pernah rasa.

great.
stupid msn. stupid hotmail. stupid yahoo.
or maybe stupid network. always dying when i need you the most.
stupid blog also.
grrrr.
and YOU.
yes. you. the most damn irritating specimen.
always make my blood go up.

tau menyusahkan hidup owang lain jek.
kalau takleh handle, jangan memandai la handle.
selengeeeeeee pey SKYPE.

but i still love you though.

a misinterpreted message or rather. a delayed one.
made me go bust on bucks.
the rain that didn't seem to stop.
constant teary eyes due to smoke and gas.
i-try-not-to-cry moment wif Ayat-ayat Cinta.
feeling excited getting 2 potential clients for abi.
and pain radiating at de buttz after colliding wif the fan due to slippery floor.

not bad for a sum-up of my day ehh.

yahhhhh. and talking nonsensical things are driving me crazy.
so crazy i might just laugh suddenly.
heh.
sound scary?

lame. really ayn.

dah lah. wana try fishing now.
*counting down to 11. after dat 12.*
duno dun ask okeh.

wassalam.
=)

p/s: i love you.

p/s p/s: guys. go read here. and DO AS TOLD.

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so what if i'm posting my number? even if i enlarge every single numbers, SOMEONE couldn't even be bothered to REMEMBER nor MEMORISE IT BY HEART. why, you would ask?
because SOMEONE'S HEAD are filled up to the brim of it with other people's numbers.
SOMEONE couldn't even be BOTHERED to SMS or CALL his GIRLFRIEND who was outside ALONE in the middle of the night, asking if she's doing alright or she might want to have some COMPANY on the PHONE. but instead, just an sms saying he's already online.

whatever. just fuck it.

To You. For You.

like any other thing a heart
can only take so much pain
when it breaks down dreams, hopes & love
are washed away by the tear fed rain.

I just feel lost, lonely, numb
and cold like the far away stars
my heart don't resemble a heart any more
cause its all covered by scars

please don't play games with my heart
I don't know how much more it can take
but I do know that how you acted today
has caused another painful break.

I thought today was gonna be a good day
when I saw you online
but instead I end up alone
all alone and cryin'

I keep reaching out to you
like I done so hard today
but you pretended you didn't see me
and just kept fading away....

lovingyou
sobrokeninside
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"no more whispers.. just silence til' eternity.."

Sitting in my bedroom alone,
Listening to songs we used to listen to.
Thinking back, to when we met,
Thinking of how much I miss you.
Looking at our photo,
Tears fill my eyes,
Looking at how happy we were,
How I didn't realize,
How I'd miss everything.
From making love,
To fighting,
To holding me close to your heart.
I miss our cuddles,
I try to forget....But can't.
--
It's been a year since we met,
It's gone by so fast,
Yet it still feels like yesterday,
Since we were living our perfect past.
--
You told me the past is gone,
And that we remain apart,
You also said you'd see me in the furture,
And that I'll always have your heart.
Those words I'll never forget,
Because I believe in every word.
I also believe in a never ending love,
And a love that is no longer heard.
--
So forever I'll whisper,
I'll whisper 'I love you"
I hope you hear me calling,
Because you know my whispers are true..

lovingyou.

livinginourmemory.

Assalamualaikum wrt wb.

25hb Januari 1954.

55 tahun yang lalu, sepasang suami isteri dikurniakan seorang cahaya mata pertama yang bakal menyinari kehidupan keluarga tersebut. masa pun berlalu dan cahaya mata pertama ini mempunyai jumlah ahli keluarga yang semakin ramai. pada umur 25 tahun, beliau bernikah dengan seorang gadis yang ternyata setia dan tabah menguruskan rumahtangga hingga ke hari ini. hasil dari pernikahan ini, mereka dikurniakan dengan empat cahaya mata, tiga jejaka dan seorang anak gadis.

telah menjadi asam garam sebuah kehidupan berkeluarga apabila menghadapi pergolakan perasaan dan rasa tidak puas hati antara setiap ahli. pasti ada saja yang tidak kena, tapi dalam hati setiap ahli masih mengalir rasa sayang. air dicincang tidak akan putus. walau sekuat mana ombak yang datang melanda, ikatan yang terjalin tetap utuh tak goyah dihempas badai.

namun, ditetapkan sejak azali..
cahaya mata pertama ini kembali semula kepada Penciptanya.
melepaskan segala perkara yang bersifat sementara
menuju ke sesuatu tempat yang dijanjiNya selamanya.
meninggalkan isteri serta segala amanahnya untuk bersama sang Khaliq

27hb Ogos 2008.

terhentinya semua catatan di dalam diari kehidupan seorang insan bergelar ayah & suami...

Selamat Hari Lahir, Ayah.
moga damai dikau di sana....

Wassalam.