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Aku memang terlanjur mencintaimu
Dan tak pernah ku sesali itu
Seluruh jiwa telah ku serahkan
Menggenggam janji setiaku

(Chorus)
Ku mohon jangan jadikan semua ini
Alasan kau menyakitiku
Meskipun cintamu tak hanya untukku
Tapi cobalah sejenak mengerti

(Coda)
Bila rasaku ini rasamu
Sanggupkah engkau
Menahan sakitnya
Terkhianati cinta yang kau jaga
Coba bayangkan kembali
Betapa hancurnya hati ini kasih
Semua telah terjadi

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i've got nothing to say. song dedicated to anyone, everyone, no one in particular. because i know my site isn't so popular like certain people who has got hundreds of hit pages every month til' there's a need to have protected posts. pardon? i can read it too? tell me, now, will there be any future posts meant just for me and you? no, right? urgh. it just makes my heart bleed again coz i think i have no idea what's going on right now. damn it. SAY IT STRAIGHT.

say you'll take back the red book and that's it.

so what now?

must i get jealous, so jealous i wish i could walk right up and present a tight slap?

must i get mad when i realise it's not mine but someone else's?

must i get sarcastic and curse til' i can't curse no more?

must i take away things not meant to be put up on my blog just so i can have a place there?

must i just close both eyes and tell myself, i have absolutely no rights to say what's right?

TELL ME.

IS THAT THE WAY IT HAS TO BE?

urgh! it's sooooo irritating.

sleepless nights have got me by..
even when i'm at the comfortest side, my eyes don't seem to shut tight.
eventually i'll feel like im asleep.
but it's always this part where it's time for you to rise and shine but you had just fallen asleep and wish for no-nonsensical disturbances for at least the next few hours.

JUST.

frustrating kan?
-______-"

still counting down the days.
to what..
i'm not even sure myself.
trying to pass time quickly, but not missing on essential things..
like what..
again i'm not sure.

things change for some reason.
i tried to develop certain changes..
things which i think in the first place can guarantee full satisfaction.
and even surprises.
i change, i adapt.
but it has come to a point where the changes seem useless.
because as the change goes by,

people change, too.

so where did the guarantee go?

*pause for a moment*

June's coming up.
there's just so much things to do.
need to clear outstandings.
the job stays. for now. till further notice.
and i wana escape to some place i've longed for.

will you still be there with me?
i've promise. it's the last.
we'll do as planned. the date is somehow fixed.
once our side is done, proceed as planned.
please.....

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"aku memang terlanjur mencintaimu..."

what's next?

"mengertikah engkau perasaanku tak terhapuskan.."

*sobs*

just a preview.
urrrgh!
they don't let people embed full song.
you want, you pay.
too bad.

i had it for free.
in my mp3.
=x