Salams.

Alhamdulillah syukur.
I'm finally getting it.
I'm heard, and I still got His interest at heart.
All I do now is just to wait for the magic to be done.
;D

oh rain. please don't stop.
wash away all those that comes in between.

Oh Allah.
Alf syukr.
Alhamdulillah hirabbil 'alamin.
Please guide me through.
Sesungguhnya segala ujian itu adalah rahsiaMu yang Maha Agung.

"Yuhibbu nahum kahubbillahi wallazhina'amanu asyaddu hubban lillah"

=)
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p/s: ana muhibbuk.

salams.

hey there.
i'm quite at loss as of how i should put my words into places. it seems funny though.
one moment my head will be filled with lots of things that i'd wish to pen down every single bits of it.
but when reality hits in, i'd just turn blank.

i don't know whats in store for me now.
i thought turning to you was the best option.
well, it is indeed the best option afterall, and suppose to be.
i keep thinking about the times we had together, the few nights back being the close ones.
i was practically pouring out my heart to you about everything, be it about the job, about the house, about the people.. about love..
about the loneliness i feel.

i know you listened to every single bit. you even enlightened me on certain things.
but what was that incident all about?
i was doing so fine and then you suddenly showed me there's another side of it.
and you know what, my actions were even questioned whether is it genuine or not. or how confident i was that the answers i got were 100% true.
that ripped my heart.
well, your other side cannot be confident too that the signs showing were true, just because there's something coming in the way that shows the same.

because it makes me think that all these are a big joke. damn big you know.
how could you possibly make two things happen differently at the same time?
given your abilities, pardon me for questioning.
but... but.. this is really getting me nowhere.

it's really draining my energy. i'm not even sure if i can reach the finish line.
you saw me cry. you heard my sobs. you understand my plight.
but why do i feel like you're just giving me false hope?
holding on to something so weak and fragile?
you guided me on what to look out for.
but all that happened, where were you guiding me actually?

*sobs*
i wish.. i really wish.. if things are not gona be the way you make me believe it will be, then please take away every single pieces.
make me forget.

salams.

*glances at the golden clock on the wall*

*blink blink*

i'm still not yet asleep at this hour.
tsk.
currently watching 'Australia'. keeping someone company (and trying to irritate him at certain times) and really glued onto Evony.

i'm FINALLY in KoH.
*do cartwheels*
erk! i think i broke my neck.

*random*
hugh jackman is so damn HOT.
and nicole kidman is simply gorgeous.
i'd kill to have a body like hers.
*imagine hard*
okay, i think the image of me like that still cannot be projected in my mind.

YET.

*jeling someone*

oh well. maybe i should turn in now.
and dream about me being one of the richest heiress in the world.
*dreamy look*

okay doodles.
Wassalam.
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p/s: i love you.

salams.

what can be a better way to start your day..

a blocked nose.
puffy eyes.
enlarged tonsils.
body temperature of 38.0 dC.
making unanswered calls and smses.

a throbbing headache.

sounds like a typical flu?

maybe yes.

and maybe not, when you suddenly remembered that you NEARLY had close contact with a suspect case at your workplace.

scary? maybe.

okay, off the record.

I don't know whose fault it was that this particular incident happened. I turned here, here said go there. I turned there, there said go here. I turned to myself, I said I can go nowhere.

I turned to Him.
He said "..Just stop right there..".

and I did.

it has never felt any calmer, indulging myself in the beautiful words of His book.

"Qul huwallahu Ahad. Allahussamadd"

I read, I fell asleep. I read again, and I fell asleep.
the remedy is just draining my whole energy.
today was laze around day.
but I couldn't be thankful enough that He's watching over me.

guide me.
it's coming near.
If I'm the rightful one, then forever I'll be.

"Yuhibbu nahum kahubbillahi wallazhina'amanu asyaddu hubban lillah".


Wassalam.
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p/s: ana muhibbuk. jiddan2 =)

salams.

so bored at home. they left me alone!
urgh! this is the cons of being very sick.
hmmmmmph.

i'm feeling kinda kelly-clarkson-ish right now.

i mean.
she's such a wonderful singer, and i can't agree more.
with her undoubtly cool fashion sense and sensational singing, it's a no wonder that people still love her though it's been years since she was crowned the first American Idol.

what you're listening right now is 'Never Again'.

pretty cool huh?

wana try fill up my mp3 space with her unbeatable hits.
hah.

now i need the antibiotic.

Never Again - Kelly Clarkson

"..does it hurt to know I'll never be there..
bet it sucks to see my face everywhere.."

;)

Wassalam.
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p/s: ana muhibbuk.

salams.

oh no. the layout is so white.

i'm having a hard time trying to put things back together.
so stressful.
and with the money not rolling in yet, it's making matters worse.

and i don't know why some people claim they can understand one's situation when actually they don't even know what the situation is like.

then there are these kind of typical and fickle-minded people. and maybe, two-faced. at one point of the time, they would say this. but then at another point, they would say that and deny saying anything before.

or rather, there are some who makes you feel so important that they tell you so much things. that's when they like you, or rather 'want' you. they will blab about their difficulties, their dreams or whatsoever.

BUT.

when they are actually having a real good time, please.. they don't expect you to be there for them because they're already hanging to somebody else. you can just buzz off and do your own stuff.

truth hurts but there's nothing you can do.
just don't make yourself look stupid.

Sis Abby: "..let it be. or better, leave it. not worth holding on to something so weak. if it's not changing, then you change.."



Doodles.
Wassalam.
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p/s: i love you.