x[ .Bisikan Nurani. ]x

sleepless nights have got me by..
even when i'm at the comfortest side, my eyes don't seem to shut tight.
eventually i'll feel like im asleep.
but it's always this part where it's time for you to rise and shine but you had just fallen asleep and wish for no-nonsensical disturbances for at least the next few hours.

JUST.

frustrating kan?
-______-"

still counting down the days.
to what..
i'm not even sure myself.
trying to pass time quickly, but not missing on essential things..
like what..
again i'm not sure.

things change for some reason.
i tried to develop certain changes..
things which i think in the first place can guarantee full satisfaction.
and even surprises.
i change, i adapt.
but it has come to a point where the changes seem useless.
because as the change goes by,

people change, too.

so where did the guarantee go?

*pause for a moment*

June's coming up.
there's just so much things to do.
need to clear outstandings.
the job stays. for now. till further notice.
and i wana escape to some place i've longed for.

will you still be there with me?
i've promise. it's the last.
we'll do as planned. the date is somehow fixed.
once our side is done, proceed as planned.
please.....

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"aku memang terlanjur mencintaimu..."

what's next?

"mengertikah engkau perasaanku tak terhapuskan.."

*sobs*